The last few weeks have been reflective as I struggled to control that which I've felt has controlled my life and existences. That which has split me into two people and shattered my psyche. Learning to accept help and not feel shame for needing to ask for help controlling or maintaining composure and focus. Help keeping myself from shattering or falling apart again.

I have faced the darkness that envelopes and often consoles me. The sadness that consumes and suffocates me. I have lost myself in the pain that eats so deep into my soul and mind that it robs me of speech leaving me physically twisted, howling like a primal wounded animal and afraid.

Who knew it would happen so fast...?

I just put the bind in today... this morning and by 8pm EST I had an answer and an excepted offer. How the heck did this move so quickly when the last one floundered and faltered. It is true about timing and something not being meant to be. Feeling a little ill and panicked but just gotta get through the day, week, month, year.... LOL. Wow you really never know what a new year will bring , even at the end of the year.